When Life Stops

I was watching a movie recently and you know how the movie gets to that very intriguing part and it goes all silent. You wait, biting nails, for the next slide as it’s the make or break part of the movie. It is like everything literally stops.

Then, it happens. And your mind is blown (or sadly, not blown as the case may be or NEPA takes light lol). It's like you are in another realm for a brief period.

Well, that’s in the movies. Now let’s talk real life. Recently, I got hold of something I wanted so badly. It was the most precious thing to me at the time. I couldn’t imagine losing it. No, that wasn’t even an option.

I guarded it, nurtured it, watched over it like my life depended on it. Oh, it was my happy place. Lol.

Then, I lost it. It was gone, like it was never there before. It happened so fast that I couldn’t save it for the life of me. I watched it go. My life stopped. I was numb.

I couldn’t feel anything for a few minutes. It felt like eternity had passed. I closed my eyes and my breath stopped. I couldn’t feel anything. Pain, regret, no emotion at all. I was in another realm. Just like the movies. Then suddenly, all the emotions came rushing. All the questions started racing in my head. How did this happen? How did I let this happen? What did I miss? Wasn’t I nurturing enough? Wasn’t it mine? Why?

I wanted to rewind, take it back just like the movies. That was not going to happen.

Time stood still.

Everyone has had this feeling at least once in their lives. It could be a result of loss of something precious, a job, a loved one you never imagined would die, a partner, a house, an accident. So many things could make our lives stop.

Nothing anyone says or does will be able to comfort or console. You can't see how you would move forward.

You feel still.

How do you deal with this? Is there even a way to deal with this? lol

My advice, Deal at your pace but remember, life never really stops. You stopped.

You have to find that inner strength to move again because no one will hand it over to you.

Take time to heal. Cry when you need to, scream if you want to, pray when you can.

Yes, I said when you can.Praying is the hardest thing to do when everything stops. Especially if you were a prayerful person before it all happened. You can imagine for the life of you why it would happen since you prayed. But truth is, it gives comfort.

Breathe.

Gradually, everything will start moving again.

Don't stop when life stops. Pause instead.

In the end, you will be just fine.

Cheers,

Nessa