This Thing Called Life...

So I sat at work thinking about how far I have come with all my plans and I started having a panic attack. I just turned 29 (yeah, it's not a landmark year but still) and I don't know if I am where I want to be.

A lot of young people think this way, you start up life thinking, "ok, I've gotten a uni degree now, time to make this 'cheddar'" right? Then life hits you..lol

For me, it started with getting an internship placement, like that should be basic right? You are supposed to apply and they just call you. Life said 'Joker, na so e dey easy?' Many of my classmates had gotten and I was like 'why haven't I?, What's wrong?, Are world people after me now?' Eventually, I had to wait a couple of months, especially since I wanted a good pay (Internship was supposed to kick start the journey to my flex life) or so I thought.

Luckily, I got it. One blissful year of sweet money. I lived my life. I could pay for most things I wanted, I could go out, I could surprise my folks with a couple of things and funny, earning your own money earns you some level of respect in the eyes of your parents so they let somethings slide.

I loved this new found freedom. I cherished it. It was something new and it had so many pecks and I thought 'it can only get better'. Oh was I wrong....lol

Then life happened. I figured now I have some work experience, I could quote salary... Unemployment looked at me and laughed that very evil laugh. I had to work for free for a few months. Then i got a job at Ejigbo area (Lagos) for about N300/hour working 8 hours daily plus alternate Saturdays.

I had fallen from my cloud 9. Now reality struck. How will i cope with this measly amount? How do i afford my new found lifestyle? How do i keep being 'Miss Independent'? I was a joker but I had to be this joker for almost a whole year. Luckily NYSC monthly salary gave a boost but it was done in a few weeks. I had to keep up with my old life. I loved that life.

They said 'Be a professional and you will never suffer'..biggest joke. But I kept pushing and applying and finally, I got something better. Slightly higher than my internship money but 'better' than where I was at and I was happy again.

Life taught me in this period that you can only plan. Life has its own ideas and would literally shove it up your a** (excuse my French). Take it as it comes, enjoy your lessons and live your life.

I'm still living my life....are you too?

Cheers